inspirational walk

"Midnight in Paris"
“Midnight in Paris”

Today I watched a remarkable film by Woody Allen and afterwards I was left truly stunned and breath-taken.  It has everything that I personally find beautiful and inspirational: Paris, French cafés, Montmarte, 20’s, Pablo Picasso, Salvador Dali, drop-waist dresses, this song, rain, great writers of the decade, just everything…

Consequently, I felt an urge to go outside, as I was feeling much healthier and I just had to get some books with the plots based in the lovely twenties. So, I did and that walk was perfect!

As I was walking down the street everything seemed different and much brighter than before. It seemed as if had never walked past those houses or canals and had never noticed how magical they looked in the sunshine. Every single part of the city was shining, from the rooftops to bicycles, from the people to the bird flocks in the water. It all might have been only an illusion, a result of illness and  the medications I had taken earlier, but yet, I enjoyed all of it. I could feel the wind blowing through my clothes and making me shiver, I could feel the sun shining on me, I could feel the headache disappearing with each step and my heart pumping more and more blood. As if I was one with my body, less feeble than yesterday, but still weaker than tomorrow.

After around twenty minutes of walking I arrived at the central library – a white coloured paradise of mine. I strolled between the bookshelves full of English literature, surrounded by familiar and unknown names of talented people. I stopped three times and picked out three medium sized books, all written in the twenties: The Sun Also Rises by Ernest Hemingway, The Beautiful and Damned by Scott Fitzgerald and Manhattan Transfer by John Dos Passos.

Subsequently, I had to officially borrow this treasure by scanning a library card and pressing a few buttons on a computer screen. However, before I could proceed, I had to wait for an elderly lady to do the same thing. Usually, I would be irritated and make a face of an impatient person, but not this time, because an enlightening idea came into my mind. Why should I be annoyed or angry with a woman who probably had spent her youth in the era I adore myself. At that moment, I imagined her swinging to the songs by Louis Armstrong in the 50’s or savoring the art of Andy Warhol or Roy Lichtenstein in the 60’s. I should be envying her and letting her take as much time as she needed.

Eventually, I did leave the library and paced back home following the old path. I spent those twenty minutes by secretly peeking at the people around me, glancing at their faces and figures. This time I was not sitting by my window and watching the life go by, this time I was a part of the crowd, I was living not just observing.


people watching


As I am not yet able to produce any proper posts due to my sickness (which is going away little by little), I am doomed to sitting in my room and entertaining myself by either watching the passers-by through the window or looking at the computer screen. I have chosen both. Therefore, I was energetic and inspired enough to produce, at least, a poem.  And I am quite happy about it!

They do not know me and they cannot see me.
I am invisible as a ghost,
Only less frightening than others.

They are not capable of noticing me
But I see and hear each one of them.

Trying to catch the bus and feeling miserable
When it doesn’t stop, not only for a second.

Rushing to and from the jobs they loathe but keep
Only to pay for their entertainment.

Searching for love in all the wrong places,
And receiving only the physical pleasure
From a person they rented.

Quarreling with their children and friends
Because the weather is just not right again.

And drinking that overpriced chai latte by the window
As it was the only way to forget the solitude.

I see it all and I can feel it all,
Their insecurities and sadness,
Their misery and isolation.

day in a bed

"Breakfast at Tiffany's"
“Breakfast at Tiffany’s”

I am not sure if I am supposed to say “Good Morning” or “Good Night”, as I have spent my whole day lying in a bed. My only activities are sleeping, drinking tea with lots of ginger, consuming medicines and getting rid of the flu, which has finally defeated me.

As I do not have enough energy to write a proper post, this is the only thing I can give you – a quick update.. That is the problem with serious illnesses, you have to cancel all your plans and meetings while feeling guilty, as if it was your fault.

Anyway, I hope I’ll recover very soon, I have too many ideas and upcoming activities, which I can’t allow to be destroyed!

Please, take care of your health during this influenza season, because being ill is no fun at all…

P.S. I am very grateful to everyone who is reading and following my blog, it means a lot to me! ^^

existentiam absurdum

“Fight Club”

One of the bloodiest and most gruesome poems I have ever written. It was inspired/based on the gory part of “Fight Club” as it was a truly graphic, but still an amazing film.


existentiam absurdum

I’m Joe with a never-ending prostate,
on my hands – alkali powder,
my fridge is full of glycerine,
I’ll make some dynamites out of it,
or maybe you want to burn,
here, take some orange juice,
here, crumble some cat faeces.

I’m Mary with a god damn cancer,
I said, I’d quit smoking, drinking,
teeth are like pieces of amber,
cough is hurting like bullets,
my body is neither grey, nor yellowish,
blueberries soaked in brandy
and dried in tobacco

I’m Jim with an arm gangrene
I took part in a fight,
my face is completely deformed,
hair has turned into the plucked feathers,
eyes and nose have switched their places
someone has stepped on my stomach
I’m being fed by an umbilical cord

online learning

Leiden University Campus The Hague

I believe in education and everything mind engaging. To be concrete, I truly think that learning has to be a lifetime activity and it should not be restricted by the curriculum of educational institution. Undoubtedly, I am still pro-formal education, I am a university student myself and starting my second semester of the studies next Monday. Even so, I am still highly profound of informal, specifically, online learning (e.g. today I am starting a few courses on Coursera) . That might have been the inspiration to write this post and share some of my insights and favourite sources of knowledge.

If you are able to read my blog, it means that you have no excuses not to be learning something new and useful. Sometimes it may seem that reading  about yet another scandal in the pop business is something new, but it definitely does not have a reasonable impact on your life and mind. I am talking about intelligent topics and I do not believe in the idea that educational means boring as most of the pupils think. I does not matter if you are interested in art history, chemistry, literature, nutrition, fitness – basically, anything that our lives are made of – you can find information about it on the internet.  Just stay away from the lives of other people, read books not gossip magazines and watch documentaries not reality shows.

As for me, I find knowledge not only in the books and documentaries, but also use the power of world wide web. Now, I would like to share some of my favourite websites and YouTube channels which I use to find inspiration and get more knowledge about the subjects of my interest.


online-education-study-skill_thumbnail1CourseraProbably one of the best academical projects I have ever seen. It allows you to enroll in a huge variety of courses from many great universities and everything is for free! What is the best about it, is that you are learning together with other students, participating in real discussions, doing quizzes and after you are done with the course you get a certificate!

Khan AcademyI am only starting to get a grasp of this website, but so far it looks great. You can watch videos from an abundance of subjects – from art history to science. Then you can also take part in discussions, accomplish various goals and even create programs if you are into the computer science.

YouTube channels

bigstock_Online_Education_11092172 TEDEducation. I cannot even describe in words how much I adore this channel, you just have to experience it yourself! It has already taught me a lot, from the benefits of being an introvert all the way to creating history. This channel has more topics than you can think of and some of the lectures/lessons are professionally animated which makes the learning process even more entertaining.

CGPGrey. Another great youtuber, who sometimes may talk too fast for me to keep up with all the information, but after a few videos you are just left truly amazed and addicted. His videos about the definition of The Netherlands and the future of education are definitely among my favourite ones.

Crash Course. My list would be incomplete without this awesome channel! Four subjects (history, English literature, biology and ecology) and two brothers – that is all you need for your evening of learning. It does not matter if you are preparing  for a test or just feeling an urge to get more knowledgeable and be amused. This is a perfect place for all of it.

I know that somewhere out there are a lot more great and valuable sources of intelligence. Thus, feel free to share your favourites and/or tell your experience or opinion about the informal/online learning.